Help Emma!

Emmas letter to @joshramsay from Marianas trench.

Josh,
My names Emma, I’m 21 years old and I just needed to write this.

I’m actually writing this from a secure eating disorders unit in a mental health hospital. I was admitted here a few days ago because I suffer from anorexia and bulimia. I was admitted last year for a while as well and managed to get discharged and I was actually doing really well until recently.

The reason I’m writing all this is because through everything Marianas Trench helps me a lot. Your lyrics help me feel less alone & remind me that so many people battle these disorders and win.

Your story has inspired me a lot. The way you were able to overcome your addiction and eating disorder makes me feel like there is some hope. I recently battled a drug addiction and I fight every day to stay clean. I feel like I’m fighting a never ending battle in my own head. I want to overcome my eating disorder but it just doesn’t seem possible some days. For a while I actually wanted it to kill me just so I wouldn’t have to fight anymore. I read about your journey and I just wish I could be that strong, I wish I knew how to do it.

Your music makes such a difference and I guess I just want to say thanks. I don’t know if I will beat this but listening to you guys gives me more hope that I will. Unfortunately right now I’m not allowed to listen to music as I don’t have a stereo on the ward and I’m not allowed my earphones for my ipod as they are considered a danger and I’m on full time observation right now. It’s so shite!
So I just go around the ward singing instead. Will see how long it takes them to give in and give me my earphones to shut me up. Haha. ;)

My friend is going to type this up and send it for me as obviously I don’t have access to the internet or a computer but I just wanted to say thanks for the inspiration and I will keep fighting so one day I can have a success story too.

Really hope you read this someday, it would mean so much.

Emma.

Ps. You guys need to come to Belfast to play a show… #justsayin

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