Help Emma!

Emz I know you are hurting so much right now. I wish I could take it all away or go through this for you because you have had enough hurt in your life. <3

I am begging you to keep fighting and to beat this horrible disease. I need you here, you are my best friend and I refuse to let you give up. I refuse to lose you. You have came so far & I know you can get back on track.

I look in your eyes, you tell me you’re fine but all I can see is fear. I know you are scared and you are frustrated but please don’t give up hope. You still have so much to offer and you have so much to fight for.

I know how much you are trying & it hurts me so much to not be able to do anything. I feel like I am just sitting watching you fade away. I miss you so much. I miss having my friend around. but I know I will get you back, you just need to get through this.

Please never forget who you are under all this. You are the strongest, smartest girl I know. Your attitude towards life has always inspired me. Your determination to help everyone no matter what you are going through has always astonished me.

You are a huge part of my life, always have been. I watched you struggle through addiction and your family problems and you always bounced back. You always came back stronger and I know if you can fight this then you will do the same again. We have been through it all together and I want you to know that I’m here 100% through this as well.

I wish you could see just how beautiful and amazing you are. I know you don’t believe me but I will never give up, I will tell you it until one day you do believe me.

I need you to be okay Emma, I need you to fight this. I know how hard it is and I am trying everything I can to bring you every shred of hope I can. When the doctors said just how close we are to losing you I felt like my heart had been ripped in two. I can’t handle that thought.

I am bearing my heart here because I have nothing else to give. All I can do now is tell you how much you mean to so many people and how many people are behind you 100%. So many people online too are behind you Emma, they are all rooting for you girl! <3

Hearing you say today that you didn’t feel like you could beat this broke my heart because I know you can. The day you collapsed I thought that was it & I have never been more scared. Right now I am terrified that you are going to give up and I want you to know that even if you do I will fight for you all the way.

Think about all those inspirations, every person, Paramore fan, Marianas Trench fan that has sent you messages, shared their stories, the music that inspires you, quotes, Josh Ramsays story. Think about it all. Find strength.

I’m sitting here in tears because I don’t know what else to do, all I know is that I have so much belief in you and your power to beat this. <33

I’m here Emma and I’m not going anywhere. We hav beat so much together and this is the same. I know you are tired and weak but you are still the same determined person underneath. You just need to find it. You can do it <3